I just wanted to quickly put something down before I carry on with my tasks as I suppose this is an ethnographic record of what I am doing/trying to achieve etc and so it’s important to me that I put down what i’m feeling.
So sad first of all to have lost my main supervisor. He was a great inspiration and has supported me well throughout the initial process it’s weird to feel more at sea, so to speak at the moment. I have been quite confused and a bit down in the dumps with where I am going at the moment as it doesn’t fully feel like me. I am thinking of it more as an opportunity now to recalibrate ideas and work out what’s happening. I have had a discussion with my second supervisor Anna and she has got a lot of good ideas and understands my project and what I am trying to achieve. She has given me some great ideas and has been a fantastic inspiration so far in terms of guiding me. I think I need to make sure I can pull it all together to show how to go forward. We are in the process of finding a new second supervisor with a specific person in mind so fingers crossed…!
As for me at the moment, it’s been nice to have a couple of weeks break away from work over easter, however I am finding it very hard to prioritise and work out how to make time for my study as well as my personal life and work. It’s proving to be very tricky to balance everything and unfortunately it appears to be my health that’s suffering currently. This has obviously made me re-analyse the situation and so I need to put a few things in place.
1- I make sure I get a FULL research day EVERY week and work will have to go on hold. I also need to make sure I make the most of this time of year to get in more days, especially those days I have missed due to staffing issues. this is what I will do now.
2- I try not to start new things until I have finished others. I have so many ideas bubbling up that it becomes hard to manage and then it stresses me out, so I need to balance these better. I have my crocheted hat lady to finish and then I will start on my rolling pin again and football. 2 at once is maybe manageable.
3- Make time for reading rather than thinking i’m wasting time doing it! It’s so silly but I think with life becoming so fast paced it means that I feel I have to skin everything rather than really learning it….I will make sure I do this. I promise!
That’s about it for now. I think I’ve got to stop writing lists too!!! OK so I’ve updated my time line and now I am going to do a bit of writing and then lunch!